Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Bright and shining vision

The work week has started. The kids are back in school. And yesterday I had a nice heartwarming moment. It was a view of one of the things I dream about when I see my future.

It was 6th period and I was in science class. The teacher and I had tried to get the kids to quiet down enough to do an activity that would be part discussion and part experiment. That hadn't worked so I wrote vocabulary words on the board, we handed out dictionaries to the groups and their assignment was to look up the definition of each word.

Some of them didn't have good dictionary skills so that was part of the learning experience. I went around assisting about 5 different tables of kids. If they knew how to use the dictionary they were pretty much self learners and worked really well on their own. The others I would help look up words and keep on task.

At one point the teacher had to step out to take care of something and left me in charge. This is a notoriously rowdy class but he'd done this before so it wasn't horrible. The nice thing about this time was that the kids were so busy that most of them didn't even notice he'd left. I kept circling among the groups that were being productive and those needing support. I was so busy and into that teaching/support flow that I didn't notice his absence either.

That was when it happened. In one split second of awareness I realized that things were working well. The kids were learning and staying involved in what they were supposed to be doing, I was keeping up with their needs, my scan of the classroom was doing what it should (show me where I was needed), and the classroom was functioning as it was supposed to.

That vision made me happy in a way that nothing else could have. That vision is what I dream of when I envision my future classroom. It must be one of the joy of every teacher when they see things going smoothly and learning flows. I am so thankful for that moment that I had to share it. Thank God for that bright and shining vision.


TekkiMom said...

Hi Lee:

I believe that there are no coincidences in life and finding your site really inspired me. I am also a cursillista myself from NYC. It's ironic because I was sitting here at work thinking about different ways to enrich my faith and I was looking for retreats and behold I found your site. For the past 3 years things have been really shaky in my life. My faith has been tested in so many ways and yet I still choose to believe that God will hear my prayers. I was diagnosed with Leukemia 3 years ago, I did the chemo and various amounts of treatments. While going thru these changes my marriage fell apart (because of my ex's infidelity). I was able to graduated from college and be a mom to 2 wonderful girls (now ages 7 & 13). There are my strength and the one thing that keeps me going. Last year in October I found out that my cancer had spread to my cervix - I had just about lost it by then! Needless to say the only resolution was to have a total abdominal hysterectomy. There was one catch to this surgery (I needed a blood donor that matched perfectly) I searched and found not one match - but right underneath my nose there was a perfect match and I never even considered asking her. My match was my best friend. After surgery I was given her blood transfusion and for some godly reason - when my blood was tested again - no cancer traces were found! I was in awe! Could my prayers have been answered?! Today 4/3/07 I am totally cancer free and I count my blessings every single day not only because my best friend saved me but mostly because it was a "miracle". I am sharing my story with you because as I was reading your site I was compelled to share my story with you. My moral: Never give up no matter how bad things are and keep the faith alive!!!

Lee, Thank you for shining a light into my spirit.

Much Love,
Your sister-in-christ
Maria (NYC)

Lee said...

Hi Maria,
Thank you for stopping by and sticking around for awhile. Your story is moving and a wonderful reaffirmation of faith. Thank you for sharing it. While, I've never been healed from a physical sickness, God has started to heal me of some emotional pains. He truly is a wonderful Father. May He keep you in the palm of his hand, under his wing, and always in his sight.

Peace! Hope! & Joy!

Micky said...

About 3 years ago I dropped into a black hole – four months of absolute terror. I wanted to end my life, but somehow [Holy Spirit], I reached out to a friend who took me to hospital. I had three visits [hospital] in four months – I actually thought I was in hell. I imagine I was going through some sort of metamorphosis [mental, physical & spiritual]. I had been seeing a therapist [1994] on a regular basis, up until this point in time. I actually thought I would be locked away – but the hospital staff was very supportive [I had no control over my process]. I was released from hospital 16th September 1994, but my fear, pain & shame had only subsided a little. I remember this particular morning waking up [home] & my process would start up again [fear, pain, & shame]. No one could help me, not even my therapist [I was terrified]. I asked Jesus Christ to have mercy on me & forgive me my sins. Slowly, all my fear has dissipated & I believe Jesus delivered me from my “psychological prison.” I am a practicing Catholic & the Holy Spirit is my friend & strength; every day since then has been a joy & blessing. I deserve to go to hell for the life I have led, but Jesus through His sacrifice on the cross, delivered me from my inequities. John 3: 8, John 15: 26, are verses I can relate to, organically. He’s a real person who is with me all the time. I have so much joy & peace in my life, today, after a childhood spent in orphanages [England & Australia]. God LOVES me so much. Fear, pain, & shame, are no longer my constant companions. I just wanted to share my experience with you [Luke 8: 16 – 17].

Peace Be With You

Lee said...

Hi Micky,
Thanks for sharing. I'm glad that the Lord brought you out of your darkness into the light. May his light always shine and make the path clear and straight for you.